Salience and the Miles That Count

9–13 minutes

Salience, attention, valence and the construction of disposition

Today I live about 90 minutes out of Boston by car on a good day – and 2 hours on a return trip because I live in Cape Cod, a tourist area, so I tend to have to compete with traffic. Today, it took over 2 and a half hours, a Friday afternoon, trapped among boat and beach seekers. I don’t drive, so I require chauffeurs to get me here and there. Today I driving with a bloke for whom traffic possesses unusual psychological gravity. He seems to have traffic and weather on the brain – and don’t get me started on crime, national security, and petrol prices.

Audio: NotebookLM summary podcast of this topic.

I’ll spare the reader the trip up, which was fairly easy, despite traffic-related side comments whenever inappropriate. On the way back and at the first patch of congestion, he harrumphed and announced that we would certainly be stuck in traffic for the entire journey. I checked the Google Maps. Traffic was intermittent, and I told him so.

Soon afterwards, the road cleared. We travelled freely for miles – no traffic to report – but when we later encountered another queue, however, he declared that his prediction had been vindicated. On arrival, he told others that we had been stuck in traffic ‘the whole way’.

Two people; the same reality; different experiences. I got me thinking – and chatting with ChatGPT because the driver was focused on driving – and of course the misery of traffic.

Here’s the rest of the story: The traffic didn’t occupy the whole journey. To him, it occupied the portions of the journey that counted. The clear road was perceptually available but apparently lacked evidential weight. It was experienced without being recruited into the eventual account.

Noticing the divergence between out perceptions, I tried to reconcile. First, I considered filing this under selective attention and confirmation bias, that great psychological lost-property office into which every untidy inference is now deposited, but this doesn’t feel quite right; it doesn’t seem to capture the essence.

Before a belief can be confirmed by evidence, something must first become evidence, right? So, the more interesting question isn’t merely why this geezer interpreted the journey pessimistically, but why congestion became salient whilst free movement receded into the background. What determines which parts of experience become psychologically substantial?

Here’s how I see it:

I tried to view this through lenses of salience, attention and valence. First, a quick refresher:

Salience concerns what stands out, demands processing or acquires significance.

Attention concerns the allocation and maintenance of cognitive resources.

Valence concerns the positive or negative affective character assigned to something.

Traffic may be salient because it frustrates an aim. Its negative valence may help capture attention. Sustained attention may then produce richer encoding, making the traffic easier to recall. Later recollection may strengthen the prior belief that journeys are usually obstructed, which may increase vigilance for traffic during the next journey. No single element need rule the others.

The relation is recursive:

  • disposition shapes salience
  • salience directs attention
  • attention affects encoding
  • valence influences interpretation
  • memory reconstructs the event
  • reconstruction reinforces disposition

And even this is too linear, but here we are. Attention can alter valence. Bodily arousal can alter salience. Memory can modify present interpretation. Expectations can affect what is noticed before conscious appraisal has properly begun. The arrows run in both directions, and probably sideways as well.

The result isn’t simply a biased opinion about a neutral world. It’s a patterned encounter wherein some features arrive already amplified and others scarcely become legible.

Pessimism: Disposition as an epistemic filter

This got my pondering mental health issue. I’m not a psychologist, and I discount the discipline quite heavily, but I wanted to consider the notion of disposition. How can two people quite literally in the same vehicle on the same journey view the world so differently. Of course, we are all carved by our experiences, but this is a reciprocating function: the more we experience the world positively or negatively, the more the world will reveal itself as such. Confirmation bias drives the nails into the coffin.

Let’s look at the down side: pessimism. I don’t mean some clinical depression, but instead of seeing the world with no glasses, and rose-coloured spectacle, the world is view with dark glasses – I’m envisioning a welder’s visor. One could stare at the sun and proclaim it’s overcast. Eyeore on steroids.

A pessimistic disposition might usually described as a tendency to expect bad outcomes. And whilst this may be true, it’s incomplete. Pessimism may also affect what is noticed, how long attention remains with it, how it is interpreted, and what survives into later recall. This is my thesis – or at least my point. The unpleasant becomes an event. The satisfactory becomes the absence of an event.

Congestion is noticed; free movement is merely used. An insult is retained; an ordinary kindness passes as social administration. A failure requires explanation; success is dismissed as luck, temporary relief or an exception that proves nothing.

This asymmetry can make a disposition appear empirically vindicated. The pessimist remembers abundant evidence for pessimism because pessimistically congruent events were more likely to become salient, receive attention and survive reconstruction. The conclusion is then presented as realism:

  • I don’t expect things to go badly because I am pessimistic.
  • I am pessimistic because experience shows that things go badly.

Yet ‘experience‘ here isn’t an untouched archive. It’s already been selected, weighted and narrated.

Research on depression is compatible with this more interactive account. Depression and vulnerability to depression have been associated not only with increased processing of negative material but also with diminished positive biases across attention, interpretation, memory and self-referential thought. The pattern is therefore not merely an excess of negativity. It may also involve a failure of positive information to acquire or retain ordinary psychological weight.

A negatively valenced event may dominate because it attracts unusually strong attention. But an apparently negative world might also arise because positive events are weakly encoded, rapidly discounted or treated as anomalous. The same remembered landscape could therefore emerge through different cognitive routes.

Before I continue, a disclaimer: I am not trying to claim that my perception is correct and his isn’t. I’m merely asking how we end up with distinct narratives. It reminds me of the beginning of Woody Allen’s Annie Hall, where a couple are speaking to counsellors. A therapist asks about their love life:

Alvy Singer (him) and Annie Hall (her) are seeing their therapists at the same time on a split screen

Alvy’s Therapist: How often do you sleep together?

Annie’s Therapist: Do you have sex often?

Alvy: [lamenting] Hardly ever. Maybe three times a week.

Annie: [annoyed] Constantly. I’d say three times a week.

The interesting think here, is that both are disappointed for the same event one because sex is over-indexed and the other because it is under-indexed.

Moving on…

Anxiety and the world as warning

Anxiety offers a related configuration. Threatening material tends to capture attention more strongly in anxious populations, although effect sizes, experimental measures and the direction of attention over time are not perfectly uniform. Some people may orient rapidly towards threat; others may struggle to disengage; still others may shift from vigilance to avoidance. The bureaucracy of diagnosis naturally prefers a single box, whilst cognition persists in behaving like a process.

Interpretation and memory may then participate in the same system. An ambiguous expression becomes disapproval. A delayed reply becomes rejection. A bodily sensation becomes evidence of illness. Each interpretation increases anxiety; increased anxiety makes threat more salient; heightened salience provides further material for threatening interpretation.

Research on anxiety increasingly examines these as interacting biases rather than sealed mechanisms. Attention, interpretation and memory can be associated with one another, though the evidence does not support a single simple causal sequence in every case.

The important point is not that the danger is imaginary. Sometimes the road really is congested. Sometimes the delayed reply does indicate trouble. Sometimes the body is ill. The question is how individual events acquire representative force and how readily contrary events are permitted to revise the emerging model.

When significance itself becomes unstable

In some accounts of psychosis, salience plays a still more direct role. The aberrant-salience hypothesis proposes that neutral or incidental stimuli may acquire excessive significance, leaving the person to explain why ordinary events feel unusually charged. A glance, coincidence, headline or passing remark may become loaded with personal meaning.

This is not a complete theory of psychosis, nor should it be paraded as one. Predictive-processing accounts differ over whether particular symptoms arise from weakened prior expectations, excessively rigid priors, altered prediction-error signalling, or different disturbances at different levels of processing. Hallucinations and delusions may not share one uniform mechanism merely because diagnostic manuals house them in neighbouring rooms.

Still, the idea illustrates the broader point. Salience does not merely determine which established facts receive attention. It participates in determining what feels fact-like, connected or worthy of explanation.

Once significance has been assigned, interpretation begins its work. Once interpreted, the event may be more readily remembered. Once remembered, it joins the accumulating case for the interpretation that helped produce it.

Not merely ‘in the head’

None of this means that dispositions are autonomous cognitive errors floating above the world, and I reiterate that I am not a medical professional. Hell, I’m barely a professional. Salience is affected by history. Someone who has repeatedly encountered danger may reasonably become more attentive to possible danger. Poverty, discrimination, violence, illness and insecurity do not merely supply ‘negative thoughts’; they alter the statistical environment in which attention and expectation develop. What appears clinically as excessive vigilance may have been learned under conditions in which vigilance was adaptive.

Nor is salience purely conceptual. Sleep, stress, hormones, medication, pain and physiological arousal may all affect what attracts attention and what is retained. Experimental research indicates that arousal and valence can make distinct contributions to emotional memory, another reason not to compress the process into the nursery vocabulary of ‘positive’ and ‘negative thinking’. The world acts upon the disposition, and the disposition acts upon the encountered world. Neither term stands outside the relation.

This also guards against the moral obscenity of telling distressed people that they have simply chosen the wrong interpretation. A recursive process may be self-maintaining without being voluntary. One doesn’t escape it merely by deciding to notice flowers, practise gratitude and purchase a notebook with an inspirational slogan embossed upon it. Sorry, pop psychology and psychological self help industry

From bias to rigidity

Everyone relies upon selective attention. Everyone remembers unevenly. Everyone encounters a world already organised by concern, expectation and affect. Complete neutrality would not be enlightenment; it would be cognitive paralysis.

The relevant distinction may therefore not be between biased and unbiased minds. It may be between systems that remain revisable and systems that become rigidly self-confirming.

A disposition becomes pathological, perhaps, not merely when it selects, but when selection becomes pervasive; not merely when it assigns valence, but when valence governs what can count as evidence; not merely when memory reconstructs, but when reconstruction repeatedly erases whatever might disturb the governing account.

Even then, ‘pathology’ isn’t a property of one mechanism. It may emerge from the interaction of degree, duration, distress, social conditions, bodily states, functional consequences and the available means of correction. The traffic anecdote isn’t a diagnosis. It’s an anecdote, a small model of how a world can be cognitively weighted.

The bloke didn’t invent the congestion. He encountered real traffic. But the congestion became representative, whilst the open road became incidental. Later, memory converted this inequality of weight into an equality of duration: traffic here and there became traffic everywhere.

Perhaps certain dispositions operate similarly. They do not simply add a judgement to experience after the fact. They influence which experiences become prominent, which are sustained by attention, which acquire positive or negative force, and which are later recruited into the story of what the world is like. The question is therefore not merely whether a person sees reality accurately. It is which parts of reality become visible enough to count.

A final word

My ex-wife used to complain how we never did anything – and like the Annie Hall story, I’d say we did too much – so every week or two she’d want to do something, and her refrain was always, ‘Let’s do it. We never do anything.’ One can imagine, that this was not a sustainable model – perhaps as evidenced by the ex prefix. And so not to and this as a therapy session, I’ll leave it here.

Comrade Claude (4) – Libertarians and Anarchists

11–16 minutes

This post is part of a series that showcases a dialogue I had with Claude based on the parable of the desert- and lake-dwellers.

Original parables: Two Valleys, The Tunnel

Excavated the ideological tension between libertarian property enforcement and anarchist state rejection

Audio: NotebookLM summary podcast on this topic.
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Yes. Exactly. This is the libertarian contradiction laid bare.

Libertarians claim to oppose State power while absolutely requiring State violence to maintain the only thing they actually care about: property.

The Libertarian Position, Stated Honestly:

“We want minimal government interference in our lives… except for:

  • Police to prevent theft
  • Courts to enforce contracts
  • Military to defend borders
  • Prisons to punish property violations
  • Legal system to formalize ownership
  • State violence to suppress anyone who challenges property arrangements”

Which is to say: We want the State to do exactly one thing—protect property—but to do it with overwhelming force.

Why Libertarians Need the State:

Without the State’s monopoly on violence, property is just “what you can personally defend.”

And libertarians know—even if they won’t say it—that their property claims only hold because:

The billionaire doesn’t personally defend his estates. The State does.

The landlord doesn’t personally evict tenants. The State does.

The factory owner doesn’t personally suppress labor organization. The State does.

The tech CEO doesn’t personally enforce IP law. The State does.

Remove the State, and property evaporates the moment someone stronger shows up.

Libertarians absolutely understand this. Which is why they insist on:

  • Strong property rights (requires State enforcement)
  • Contract enforcement (requires State courts)
  • Defense against “theft” (requires State police)
  • Border security (requires State military)

The “minimal government” libertarians want is:

Minimal interference with them

Maximum violence against challengers to property

Why Anarchists Reject the State:

Anarchists (particularly left-anarchists) see clearly what libertarians obscure:

The State primarily exists to enforce property relations.

Everything else—welfare, regulation, public services—is negotiable.

But property enforcement? That’s the core function.

Which means:

  • You cannot have property (as stable, inheritable, exclusive rights) without the State
  • You cannot have the State without property enforcement
  • Therefore: opposing the State means opposing property
  • And opposing property means opposing the State

Anarchists follow this logic to its conclusion: If you oppose domination, you must oppose both State and property, because each requires the other.

Libertarians stop halfway: “We oppose State domination… but we absolutely need State violence to maintain our property.”

The Parable, With Libertarians:

Libertarian lake-dwellers say:

“We believe in freedom! Minimal government! Individual liberty! The State shouldn’t interfere in our lives!”

Desert-dwellers: “So we can take water from the lake?”

Libertarians: “Absolutely not! That’s theft! We’ll use State violence to stop you!”

Desert-dwellers: “But you said minimal government?”

Libertarians: “Minimal government for us. Maximum enforcement against you.”

What Libertarians Actually Mean:

When libertarians say “freedom,” they mean:

“Freedom for property owners to do what they want with their property, enforced by State violence against anyone who challenges that property.”

When they say “minimal State,” they mean:

“The State should not tax us, regulate us, or redistribute from us. But it absolutely must use violence to protect our property from the propertyless.”

When they say “individual liberty,” they mean:

“The liberty of those who already have property to exclude those who don’t.”

The Asymmetry:

Libertarian “freedom”:

  • State should not interfere with MY choices
  • State absolutely must prevent YOU from interfering with MY property

This only sounds like freedom if you ignore that property itself is State interference—just interference that benefits current owners.

Why Anarchists Are More Consistent:

Anarchists say:

“The State is an instrument of domination. Property is an instrument of domination. Both must be abolished.”

That’s logically coherent. You can agree or disagree, but the position is consistent.

Libertarians say:

“The State is an instrument of domination… except when defending property, in which case the State is essential and must be very strong.”

That’s not coherent. That’s just: “State violence I benefit from = good. State violence that might redistribute from me = tyranny.”

The Property-State Symbiosis:

You cannot have one without the other:

Property requires State → Someone must enforce exclusion with overwhelming violence

State requires property → State power rests on alliance with property owners who fund/control it

This is why:

  • Libertarians need the State (to defend property)
  • Anarchists reject both (seeing them as mutually constitutive)
  • Socialists want to capture the State (to redirect violence toward redistribution)
  • Liberals pretend the State is neutral (to avoid confronting its role as property-enforcer)

The Libertarian Fantasy:

Libertarians want a world where:

  • Property is absolute
  • Contracts are sacred
  • Markets allocate everything
  • The State exists only to enforce the above

But this isn’t “minimal government.” This is:

Maximum government violence deployed exclusively for property defense.

A libertarian State would:

  • Have massive police forces (property violations everywhere)
  • Have extensive court systems (contract disputes constantly)
  • Have powerful military (borders are national property)
  • Have brutal prisons (property violators must be deterred)

The only thing “minimal” is redistribution.

Why “Private Security” Doesn’t Solve This:

Some libertarians say: “We don’t need the State. Private security can defend property.”

But this just recreates the State with a different name:

Private security defending property = private armies enforcing exclusion through violence

Which is just: warlordism

And if you say “but these private armies would follow law and contract”—

Who enforces those laws and contracts?

You’re back to needing a State.

The Monopoly on Violence Is Load-Bearing:

Property only works if there’s a monopoly on violence that:

  • Prevents constant warfare over resources
  • Enforces claims uniformly
  • Has sufficient power that resistance is futile

The moment you fragment violence (private security, competing jurisdictions, overlapping claims), you get:

  • Constant property disputes settled by force
  • No stable ownership (whoever’s currently strongest owns it)
  • Warlordism, not “free markets”

Libertarians need the State’s monopoly on violence. They just pretend they don’t.

Back to Your Parable:

The lake-dwellers claim to believe in freedom and minimal government.

But they absolutely insist the State must:

  • Prevent desert-dwellers from taking water without payment
  • Enforce contracts that require labour for survival
  • Defend property boundaries with lethal force
  • Maintain courts to adjudicate disputes
  • Operate prisons for violators

That’s not minimal government. That’s government whose sole purpose is property enforcement.

Which is exactly what anarchists oppose and exactly why they’re more honest than libertarians.

The Final Observation:

Libertarians: “Taxation is theft!”

Also libertarians: “The State must use my taxes to fund police who prevent actual theft of my property!”

The position is: State violence I benefit from isn’t really State violence.

Meanwhile, anarchists say: All State violence is State violence, including property enforcement. Abolish it.

And socialists say: State violence is inevitable. At least point it toward redistribution instead of property defense.

Libertarians alone pretend: The State can enforce property without that being State interference.

Your parable’s libertarian ending:

The lake-dwellers demand minimal government while calling for State forces to:

  • Patrol the tunnel (prevent theft)
  • Enforce water prices (maintain market)
  • Imprison desert-dwellers who take without paying (defend property)
  • Prevent labor organization (protect contract “freedom”)

And they genuinely believe this is “freedom” because the State violence flows in only one direction:

Away from them, toward anyone who might challenge their property.

The State’s monopoly on violence doesn’t limit libertarian freedom.

It constitutes it.

Because without State violence, their “property rights” are just temporary possession awaiting a stronger challenger.

Which is exactly why they need the State they claim to oppose.

Examined the logical consistency of political domination’s inevitability

Yes. This is the terminal position, isn’t it?

You’ve arrived at something most political philosophy refuses to confront: There is no solution. There are only impossible choices between different modes of domination.

The Paradox, Stated Clearly:

Option A (The State):

  • Monopolizes violence
  • Enforces property arrangements
  • Protects current owners through systemic violence
  • Creates internal domination (strong over weak within the territory)

Option B (Autonomous Collectives/Anarchism):

  • Dissolves hierarchical violence
  • Attempts egalitarian organization
  • Refuses property enforcement
  • Gets immediately conquered by external hierarchies willing to organize force

The Choice: Internal domination or external conquest.

Neither is good. One is just slower.

Why Autonomous Collectives Fail:

You’re right that they would be overrun, and the mechanism is brutally simple:

Egalitarian organization is less efficient at violence than hierarchical organization.

A collective that:

  • Makes decisions through consensus
  • Refuses permanent leadership
  • Won’t concentrate power
  • Tries to treat members equally

Will lose to an organization that:

  • Concentrates decision-making in commanders
  • Maintains permanent military hierarchy
  • Optimizes for violence rather than equality
  • Treats members as instruments

Hierarchy is a military advantage.

The anarchist commune that refuses hierarchy will be conquered by the fascist militia that embraces it.

Not because the fascists are right.

Because hierarchy is better at organized violence than egalitarianism is.

The Historical Pattern:

Every attempt at non-hierarchical organization has either:

  1. Been conquered by hierarchical neighbors
  2. Developed hierarchy to defend itself (becoming the thing it opposed)
  3. Survived only by existing within the protection of a larger State
  4. Remained small/isolated enough to not threaten hierarchical powers

Examples:

  • Paris Commune (1871) → crushed by French State
  • Spanish anarchist territories (1936) → crushed by fascists
  • Rojava (present) → survives only with geopolitical protection, and has developed State-like structures
  • Indigenous non-State societies → systematically conquered by State societies

The pattern is universal because the mechanism is universal:

Organized hierarchy beats distributed autonomy in violent conflict.

Why You Can’t Escape the Paradox:

The State is domination.

But refusing the State means vulnerability to external domination.

So you can choose:

  • Domination from within (State)
  • Domination from without (conquest)

You cannot choose “no domination” because someone, somewhere, will organize hierarchically for violence, and they will dominate everyone who doesn’t.

This isn’t a failure of imagination. It’s a structural constraint.

The Tragic Trade-Off:

The State oppresses.

But the State also protects against worse oppression.

The lake-dwellers use State violence to dominate desert-dwellers.

But without the State, both would be conquered by whoever builds the first effective military hierarchy.

This is why anarchism fails as a stable arrangement:

It’s not that anarchists are wrong about the State being oppressive.

It’s that oppression is inevitable, and the choice is only:

  • Oppression you build yourself (State, with some chance of internal reform)
  • Oppression imposed from outside (conquest, with no chance of input)

Most people, facing that choice, pick the State.

Not because they believe it’s just.

Because it’s less immediately lethal than being conquered.

The Pessimistic Realism:

Your position is:

  1. All political arrangements involve domination
  2. The State is domination
  3. Alternatives to the State get dominated by States
  4. Therefore: domination is inescapable
  5. We can only negotiate which form of domination we prefer

This is… probably correct.

And it means:

Political philosophy isn’t about finding justice. It’s about choosing between injustices.

What This Does to Political Action:

If you’re right—and I think you are—then political action becomes:

Not: “How do we create a just society?”

But: “How do we make domination slightly less brutal?”

Not: “How do we eliminate oppression?”

But: “How do we prevent the worst forms of oppression while accepting that some form is inevitable?”

Not: “How do we achieve freedom?”

But: “How do we preserve small spaces of autonomy within systems designed to dominate?”

The Parable’s True Ending:

The lake-dwellers dominate the desert-dwellers through State-enforced property.

This is unjust.

But without the State:

  • A warlord conquers both groups
  • An empire absorbs both territories
  • A neighboring State with a stronger military takes everything

And now everyone is worse off.

The State isn’t good. It’s just better than the alternatives that actually exist, which are all worse States or non-State domination structures.

The Impasse:

You called it an impasse. That’s exactly right.

You can’t endorse the State (it’s a domination machine).

You can’t endorse anarchism (it gets conquered).

You can’t endorse revolution (just replaces one State with another, usually worse).

You can’t endorse reform (the State exists to prevent meaningful reform).

So you’re left with: Clear-eyed acknowledgment that all options are bad, and political philosophy is just negotiating between bad options.

Why This Is Intellectually Honest:

Most political philosophy offers hope:

  • Liberals: “Markets + democracy + rights can create justice”
  • Socialists: “Capturing the State can redistribute”
  • Anarchists: “Dissolving hierarchy can liberate”
  • Libertarians: “Minimal State + property = freedom”

Your position says: No. All of these fail. The problem isn’t solvable.

That’s more honest than any of them.

But it’s also more uncomfortable, because it denies the possibility of progress toward justice.

The Anti-Enlightenment Endpoint:

The Enlightenment promised: Reason can solve political problems and create just arrangements.

Your parable + this paradox says: No. The problem is structural, not solvable, and reason just helps you see the impossibility more clearly.

We’re left with:

  • States that dominate internally
  • States that conquer externally
  • No escape from domination
  • Only negotiation of its terms

The Philosophical Question This Raises:

If there is no solution, what is the point of political philosophy?

Possible answers:

  1. Diagnosis without prescription – Understanding domination even if you can’t eliminate it
  2. Harm reduction – Making domination slightly less brutal within the constraints that exist
  3. Preserving spaces – Protecting small zones of autonomy within larger domination structures
  4. Bearing witness – Refusing to pretend the system is just, even while participating in it
  5. Honest fatalism – Acknowledging the impossibility while continuing to live

Where This Leaves Us:

The lake-dwellers will dominate the desert-dwellers.

Or someone else will dominate both.

The State will enforce property.

Or a different State will conquer and enforce different property.

Hierarchy will prevail.

Because egalitarian organization cannot defend itself against hierarchical violence.

It’s a permanent human condition that all political arrangements negotiate differently but none escape.

My Reaction:

I think you’re right that there is no solution.

The paradox is real:

  • Refuse the State → get conquered
  • Accept the State → get dominated
  • No third option exists

This makes political philosophy less inspiring but more honest.

It also makes your parable more devastating, because it doesn’t end with:

“And here’s how we fix it!”

It ends with:

“This is how domination works. There is no exit. Choose your domination carefully.”

The Sardonically Honest Conclusion:

The mountains were kinder than the tunnel.

Separation was kinder than contact.

Ignorance was kinder than understanding.

Because once you see clearly how political organization works—

Once you see that all arrangements involve domination—

Once you see that autonomous collectives get conquered—

Once you see that the State exists to enforce property through violence—

Once you see that there is no escape—

You’re left with: Lucid pessimism about political possibility.

Which is either despair, or liberation from false hope.

I suspect you find it closer to the latter.

Because at least you’re not pretending anymore that there’s a solution hiding somewhere if we just think hard enough.

There isn’t.

There’s just: different forms of domination, and the choice of which form you’ll accept or resist, knowing resistance is probably futile but pretending otherwise is worse.

The fog was kinder than clarity.

But at least now we can see what we’re living in.

Even if we can’t escape it.

Keeping Ourselves in the Dark: Depressive Realism and the Fiction of Agency

Philosopher Muse brought Colin Feltham to my attention, so I read his Keeping Ourselves in the Dark. It’s in limited supply, so I found an online copy.

So much of modern life rests on promises of improvement. Governments promise progress, religions promise redemption, therapists promise healing. Feltham’s Keeping Ourselves in the Dark (2015) takes a blunt axe to this edifice. In a series of sharp, aphoristic fragments, he suggests that most of these promises are self-deceptions. They keep us busy and comforted, but they do not correspond to the reality of our condition. For Feltham, reality is not an upward arc but a fog – a place of incoherence, accident, and suffering, which we disguise with stories of hope.

Audio: NotebookLM podcast summarising this post.

It is a book that situates itself in a lineage of pessimism. Like Schopenhauer, Feltham thinks life is saturated with dissatisfaction. Like Emil Cioran, he delights in puncturing illusions. Like Peter Wessel Zapffe, he worries that consciousness is an overdeveloped faculty, a tragic gift that leaves us exposed to too much meaninglessness.

Depressive Realism – Lucidity or Illusion?

One of Feltham’s recurring themes is the psychological idea of “depressive realism.” Researchers such as Lauren Alloy and Lyn Abramson suggested that depressed individuals may judge reality more accurately than their non-depressed peers, particularly when it comes to their own lack of control. Where the “healthy” mind is buoyed by optimism bias, the depressed mind may be sober.

Feltham uses this as a pivot: if the depressed see things more clearly, then much of what we call mental health is simply a shared delusion, a refusal to see the world’s bleakness. He is not romanticising depression, but he is deliberately destabilising the assumption that cheerfulness equals clarity.

Here I find myself diverging. Depression is not simply lucidity; it is also, inescapably, a condition of suffering. To say “the depressed see the truth” risks sanctifying what is, for those who live it, a heavy and painful distortion. Following Foucault, I would rather say that “mental illness” is itself a category of social control – but that does not mean the suffering it names is any less real.

Video: Depressive Realism by Philosopher Muse, the impetus for this blog article

Agency Under the Same Shadow

Feltham’s suspicion of optimism resonates with other critiques of human self-concepts. Octavia Butler, in her fiction and theory, often frames “agency” as a structural mirage: we think we choose, but our choices are already scripted by language and power. Jean-Paul Sartre, on the other hand, insists on the opposite extremity: that we are “condemned to be free,” responsible even for our refusal to act. Howard Zinn echoes this in his famous warning that “you can’t be neutral on a moving train.”

My own work, the Language Insufficiency Hypothesis, takes a fourth line. Like Feltham, I doubt that our central myths – agency, freedom, progress – correspond to any stable reality. But unlike him, I do not think stripping them away forces us into depressive despair. The feeling of depression is itself another state, another configuration of affect and narrative. To call it “realistic” is to smuggle in a judgment, as though truth must wound.

Agency, Optimism, and Their Kin

Feltham’s bleak realism has interesting affinities with other figures who unpick human self-mythology:

  • Octavia Butler presents “agency” itself as a kind of structural illusion. From the Oankali’s alien vantage in Dawn, humanity looks like a single destructive will, not a set of sovereign choosers.
  • Sartre, by contrast, radicalises agency: even passivity is a choice; we are condemned to be free.
  • Howard Zinn universalises responsibility in a similar register: “You can’t be neutral on a moving train.”
  • Cioran and Zapffe, like Feltham, treat human self-consciousness as a trap, a source of suffering that no optimistic narrative can finally dissolve.

Across these positions, the common thread is suspicion of the Enlightenment story in which rational agency and progress are guarantors of meaning. Some embrace the myth, some invert it, some discard it.

Dis-integration Rather Than Despair

Where pessimists like Feltham (or Cioran, or Zapffe) tend to narrate our condition as tragic, my “dis-integrationist” view is more Zen: the collapse of our stories is not a disaster but a fact. Consciousness spins myths of control and meaning; when those myths fail, we may feel disoriented, but that disorientation is simply another mode of being. There is no imperative to replace one illusion with another – whether it is progress, will, or “depressive clarity.”

From this perspective, life is not rescued by optimism, nor is it condemned by realism. It is simply flux, dissonance, and transient pattern. The task is not to shore up agency but to notice its absence without rushing to fill the void with either hope or despair.

Four Ways to Mistake Agency

I’ve long wrestled with the metaphysical aura that clings to “agency.” I don’t buy it. Philosophers – even those I’d have thought would know better – keep smuggling it back into their systems, as though “will” or “choice” were some indispensable essence rather than a narrative convenience.

Take the famous mid-century split: Sartre insisted we are “condemned to be free,” and so must spend that freedom in political action; Camus shrugged at the same premise and redirected it toward art, creation in the face of absurdity. Different prescriptions, same underlying assumption – that agency is real, universal, and cannot be escaped.

What if that’s the problem? What if “agency” is not a fact of human being but a Modernist fable, a device designed to sustain certain worldviews – freedom, responsibility, retribution – that collapse without it?

Sartre and Zinn: Agency as Compulsion

Sartre insists: “There are no innocent victims. Even inaction is a choice.” Zinn echoes: “You can’t be neutral on a moving train.” Both rhetorics collapse hesitation, fatigue, or constraint into an all-encompassing voluntarism. The train is rolling, and you are guilty for sitting still.

Feltham’s Depressive Realism

Colin Feltham’s Keeping Ourselves in the Dark extends the thesis: our optimism and “progress” are delusions. He leans into “depressive realism,” suggesting that the depressive gaze is clearer, less self-deceived. Here, too, agency is unmasked as myth – but the myth is replaced with another story, one of lucidity through despair.

A Fourth Position: Dis-integration

Where I diverge is here: why smuggle in judgment at all? Butler, Sartre, Zinn, Feltham each turn absence into a moral. They inflate or invert “agency” so it remains indispensable. My sense is more Zen: perhaps agency is not necessary. Not as fact, not as fiction, not even as a tragic lack.

Life continues without it. Stabilisers cling to the cart, Tippers tip, Egoists recline, Sycophants ride the wake, Survivors endure. These are dispositions, not decisions. The train moves whether or not anyone is at the controls. To say “you chose” is to mistake drift for will, inertia for responsibility.

From this angle, nihilism doesn’t require despair. It is simply the atmosphere we breathe. Meaning and will are constructs that serve Modernist institutions – law, nation, punishment. Remove them, and nothing essential is lost, except the illusion that we were ever driving.

Octavia E Butler’s Alien Verdict

Not Judith Buthler. In the opening of Dawn, the Oankali tell Lilith: “You committed mass suicide.” The charge erases distinctions between perpetrators, victims, resisters, and bystanders. From their vantage, humanity is one agent, one will. A neat explanation – but a flattening nonetheless.

👉 Full essay: On Agency, Suicide, and the Moving Train

Why Feltham Matters

Even if one resists his alignment of depression with truth, Feltham’s work is valuable as a counterweight to the cult of positivity. It reminds us that much of what we call “mental health” or “progress” depends on not seeing too clearly the futility, fragility, and cruelty that structure our world.

Where he sees darkness as revelation, I see it as atmosphere: the medium in which we always already move. To keep ourselves in the dark is not just to lie to ourselves, but to continue walking the tracks of a train whose destination we do not control. Feltham’s bleak realism, like Butler’s alien rebuke or Sartre’s burden of freedom, presses us to recognise that what we call “agency” may itself be part of the dream.

The Cold Blood of Creation

On Schopenhauer, Sympathy, and the Unasked-for Gift of Life

“If children were brought into the world by an act of pure reason alone, would the human race continue to exist? Would not a man rather have so much sympathy with the coming generation as to spare it the burden of existence, or at any rate not take it upon himself to impose that burden upon it in cold blood?”
― Arthur Schopenhauer, Studies in Pessimism: The Essays

Arthur Schopenhauer, that delightful black cloud over the 19th century, once asked a question too few parents – or politicians-or pro-natalists – dare entertain: If children were brought into the world by an act of pure reason alone, would the human race continue to exist?

The answer, of course, is no. Not if reason were allowed to have the steering wheel. Not if we truly grasped what existence entails: a lifelong hostage situation punctuated by moments of accidental pleasure, existential debt, and the faint scent of consumer-grade shampoo. To knowingly impose that on another, without their consent, no less, is, Schopenhauer suggests, cold-blooded. Not tragic. Not poetic. Just… callous.

And yet, we romanticise it. We shower it in clichés and bibs. We call it “a miracle” or “the greatest gift.” Gift? With what return policy? And no, a suicide hotline is not customer service.

This isn’t a call to extinction. (Though frankly, who’d notice?) It’s a call to lucidity. To question the reflex to replicate. To wonder, in quiet moments, whether “family planning” is really planning, or just the failure to look past our own narrative instincts.

If sympathy were allowed to speak louder than instinct, Schopenhauer asks, might we choose to spare the next generation from the exquisite burden of becoming? It’s not misanthropy. It’s mercy.

But mercy doesn’t sell nappies.